This is quite the project of mine. Walking you through my process here, first- I wanted to make a simple oneshot comic in the style of a doujin just... because. I wanted to do something for the sake of completing it. (this was like, a year before I ever made anything *public of them.) Thought of a basic idea, "oh okay the stalker trope is a thing, thats kinda interesting for a short story- but man! thats boring as fuck on its own... Uh, I dunno how about... Uuuuhhh the other guys is a stalker too- bingo, theres my idea." So I start drawing the thing, and as I'm doing it I'm sitting there goin'... yknow... I kinda like this concept. A lot. Like, too much to waste these characters on some stupid one shot, when this idea can probably be put in the oven for longer and woven into something a lot greater than what it is right now. I thought it had greater potential, essentialy. So now I'm goin', "okay- what am I gonna do with this then? Comics are farrr too strenouous and need wayyy too much consitency for someone with ADHD as severe as me, completely undiagnosed and unmedicated, with my erratic unpredictable life habits. I need something that I can work on passively... taking on the story in short chunks to eventually put together a greater puz- OH my god wait a minute I have renpy-" So, cross off comic, and relabel; visual novel. In this 10% drafted visual novel, whose file is collecting dust on my pc right now (I only opened it to see how far the story evolved, the story changed quite a bit! for the better, thankfully. While I clearly was having fun with and raging trying to figure out renpy, and the format of a visual novel- that shit was abhorrent.) you play as a third person point of view who mainly follows Daiki's story, which is already an odd choice for a visual novel that I was very dead set on for some reason. As he gets through school, meets Vincenzo, finally gets a life, etc etc. The I dropped it because wow visual novels are work- combined with a still not fully developed story, it was a recipe for disaster. That's one summer down.

Now to this summer. I've been developing the story in my slippery little thinkchamber against my will, brain fully rotted with nothing but content of them doing donuts around my brain. They trapped me in a room full of rats and I gotta get out. So, alright i'll make one self indulgent thing of these guys for myself, before I pick up Deus Nine again and make episodic videos formatted like animatics or shot stories (vivinos type stuff. big fan. discovered around pink bitch club.) stuff for them. I make the thing, don't assume it's gonna get attention, bada bing, bada boom- here we are. and man is it stressful and kinda scary LOL. As someone who reaaaallydoesnt like attention this uh... is something. it is... something. just- keep paying attention to the stuff I put on the stage, ignore me hiding behind the curtains. spotlight scary.