Daiki Daisuki

Forces beyond our control torment us so, and yet here we are in eachothers arms. Peacefully resting amidst the chaos of the world. Despite the sicknesses and dread that plague us both, we persist. Loved, not in spite of flaws, but because of them. Flaws are a part of you. And if I cannot love the whole of you, until the very end of time, do I even love you at all? If you're flawed the same way I am, and I cannot bring myself to love you, do I even love myself? You must understand it, dont you? The desire to be loved? Yet you feel with absolute certainty that it cannot be true. your collection of small items and memories will sedate your pain, but dear, it will not heal your wounds. There are so many parts of you that shine brighter than anything ive ever seen, and yet, you hide them all. Why? Why do you hide yourself from me, from those who love you? Because someone told you something was bad? Because someone told you, you would be less than, for shining in a different color than everyone else? You're intentions are pure, yet your heart feels void, and the mind is louder than ever. I promise you, everything will be okay. You don't need fragments of me to comfort you in delusions. I'm standing right here. And I'm not going anywhere. Forces beyond our control torment us so, and yet here we are in eachothers arms. Peacefully resting amidst the chaos of the world. Despite the sicknesses and dread that plague us both, we persist. Loved, not in spite of flaws, but because of them. Flaws are a part of you. And if I cannot love the whole of you, until the very end of time, do I even love you at all? If you're flawed the same way I am, and I cannot bring myself to love you, do I even love myself? You must understand it, dont you? The desire to be loved? Yet you feel with absolute certainty that it cannot be true. your collection of small items and memories will sedate your pain, but dear, it will not heal your wounds. There are so many parts of you that shine brighter than anything ive ever seen, and yet, you hide them all. Why? Why do you hide yourself from me, from those who love you? Because someone told you something was bad? Because someone told you, you would be less than, for shining in a different color than everyone else? You're intentions are pure, yet your heart feels void, and the mind is louder than ever. I promise you, everything will be okay. You don't need fragments of me to comfort you in delusions. I'm standing right here. And I'm not going anywhere.

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Redid the entire Landing page for this. Tryina make this shit cool now that I know some more stuff.

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_Summary

What would you do if you loved something so much, but were so aware of how... fragile, how potentially dangerous, that certain something is? You wouldn't go and touch it, would you? Of course not, you would never interact with it directly for fear of it breaking, bruising, biting, or worse- running away from you. Why get greedy and ruin what you have, because you want more- when you can instead... curb your apetite, so to speak. After all, you only need a little bit of reality to enhance the fantasy, right? Who cares if a few pens or tissues go missing? It's not like anyone pays attention to that stuff. Anything to keep yourself sane while not losing what you have, right? Now all you need to do, is make sure no one finds out. Keep yourself mentally in check just enough to not spill over into reality. Be sneaky and meticulouly careful with your missions to retrieve more material to help you gaslight yourself; into thinking that certain something... is going to be with you always- that it is with you always- so long as you have your little found treasures. I mean its not like that can be unhealthy or anything, right? I mean like, its not that big of a deal, right? But... If someone's been watching you far closer than you initially thought... then what? Keep up the act? Or come clean? Are you imagining things because this is what you want? Is this what you want? If the feelings get too strong, if the chances of taking that risk and actually getting more- attaining that fantasy- seems too tantilizing, too perfect... almost... probable? That the odds may be in your favor? What would you do?

Two young men have very similar answers to those questions. Unconventional answers, that much is for sure.
A reclusive, socially inept outcast; on both his home soil in japan, and his new home in the states, swears off people entirely. For fear of even more harrassment that he's had to suffer through for all years... And an Italian American socialite, who eases through any and all interactions with ease, mingling and getting along with anyone. Morphing himself into whatever he's supposed to be at any given time... attempt to be normal to varying amounts of success.
When both of them, are anything but normal.

_{Ok but actually, what is this?}

This is (and I'm defining this loosely here,) a "Project" of mine, with my two little freak weirdos
I originally drafted them back in 2022-2023ish just for myself. But I made one video of them, for myself, that I just thought I'd share regardless, and it spawned all this, since people seem to like them. This isnt formatted in any one particular way, since I'm a one woman show here, and god knows I'm barely functional... I'm also not too confident in my writing ability (nor anything else) especially in terms of dialogue, so I may be flipping back and forth between wordless videos and videos with actual spoken dialogue, likely formatted as an animatic.

This little project of mine is going to mainly consist of . . .

Videos that are somewhere inbetween an animation and an animatic,

telling the story piece by piece. In theory, you should be able to put together a sequential story after watching them all. (This is the main thing im focusing on)

Short comic strips

(*not a full on sequential comic, comic strips) of various parts of the story that deserve to be spotlighted, or more scenes for building up an idea/flavoring. Stirring the pot essentially.

_{Artist Notes . . .

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This is quite the project of mine. Walking you through my process here, first- I wanted to make a simple oneshot comic in the style of a doujin just... because. I wanted to do something for the sake of completing it. (this was like, a year before I ever made anything public of them.) Thought of a basic idea, "oh okay the stalker trope is a thing, thats kinda interesting for a short story- but man! thats boring as fuck on its own... Uh, I dunno how about... Uuuuhhh the other guys is a stalker too- bingo, theres my idea." So I start drawing the thing, and as I'm doing it I'm sitting there goin'... yknow... I kinda like this concept. A lot. Like, too much to waste these characters on some stupid one shot, when this idea can probably be put in the oven for longer and woven into something a lot greater than what it is right now. I thought it had more potential, essentialy.
So now I'm goin', "okay- what am I gonna do with this then? Comics are farrr too strenouous and need wayyy too much consitency for someone with ADHD as severe as me. I need something that I can work on passively... taking on the story in short chunks to eventually put together a greater puz- OH my god wait a minute I have renpy-" So, cross off comic, and relabel; visual novel. In this 10%(?) drafted visual novel, whose file is collecting a nice thick layer of dust on my pc right now (I only opened it to see how far the story evolved, the story changed quite a bit! For the better, thankfully. While I clearly was having fun with and raging trying to figure out renpy, and the format of a visual novel- that shit was abhorrent. You're never seeing those drafts... eugh...) you play as a third person point of view who mainly follows Daiki's story, which is already an odd choice for a visual novel that I was very dead set on for some reason? As he gets through school, meets Vincenzo, finally gets a life, etc etc. Then I dropped it because wow visual novels are work- combined with a still not fully developed story, it was a recipe for disaster. That's one summer down.

2024 Notes . . .
Now to this summer. I've been developing the story in my slippery little thinkchamber against my will, brain fully rotted with nothing but content of them doing donuts around my brain. They trapped me in a room full of rats and I gotta get out. So, alright i'll make one self indulgent thing of these guys for myself, before I pick up Deus Nine again and make episodic videos formatted like animatics or short stories (vivinos type stuff. big fan. discovered around pink bitch club.) stuff for them. I make the thing, don't assume it's gonna get attention, bada bing, bada boom- here we are. and man is it stressful and kinda scary LOL. As someone who reaaaally doesnt like attention this uh... is something. it is... something. just- keep paying attention to the stuff I put on the stage, ignore me hiding behind the curtains. spotlight scary. - 2024

2025 Notes . . .
Hoookay- so uh. I got like barely anything done in a whole year which is.... not as planned... dear god, BUT I somehow got Daiki made into a plushie??? so thats like?? um wow??? Istg my pile of drafts of stuff for these guys just keeps growing and growing and the story has expanded so much... yet all of it is stuck in my brain and not put onto anything. It's the end of 2025 (October) as im editing this and redoing this site, so I'm hoping 2026 I'll finally be able to get myself together... since I quite frankly, am either falling apart at the seams mentally and physically- or I have other obligations I gotta prooritize over anything I just wanna do.

Ramblings . . . themes and such or something idk

I was gonna write a whole thing here but decided against it, so instead ill say this; I'm super happy people seem to like my little guys! Seeing others comment (yes, I read them all) that my little guys have brought them joy, or a sense of comfort, warms my heart in a way I cant describe- cause thats exactly why I made them for myself. These guys were never meant to be public, I shared one thing, and it took off. I made them offputting and weird and kinda creepy (cause lets be real, the more morally ambigious, the more interesting. No squeaky clean work of fiction is ever gonna be as interesting as the twisted shit. at least for my tastes lol) and I baked themes of unconditional love into their entire story that I hope you all can feel through the screen. I'm delighted others see the charm in them, the way I do.

While these guys actually are doing shit thats objectively weird as hell and toxic for the sake of a story and actually *physically* fitting the role of "freak" for thematic purposes- I hope everyone who likes my little goobles can have the underlying message reach them. To understand why I made these guys, and what I hope you all get out of this...

The idea: that if you've been made to feel like a "freak," a "weirdo," for innocently being yourself, for stepping "out of line" from what is "normal," for being authentic, for being "too much", being told no one will ever love you as you are- unless you change into a different person... Maybe you really are a "freak." Maybe you are a "weirdo." But dont weirdos deserve love too? Everyone is deserving of love, even the socially inept, the strange, the damaged, the afraid, the weird... even the "freaks." And hopefully, if theres a god in the sky, there is a perfect match, for everyone. And I pray we all met ours.

BUT until that happens- we have the internet and media to enjoy so meh whatever that works too for now LMAOOO

Note!

For now they're just gonna have these cards, but in theory, I'm gonna be making their own pages when you click on their face w/wayyyy more info on them. Thats not happerning rn though, I gotta fill this page with shit first lol.

_{Daiki Suzuki}

Nicknames : N/A
Age : 20
Height : 5'3"
Sex : Male
Pronouns : He / Him
Race / Ethnicity : Half Japanese / Half American
Spoken Languages : Japanese, English
Romantic Attraction : Grayromantic

Daiki doesn't have too many different things going on, but what he does have going on- is intense.
He was always rather outcast even from his own peers back on his home soil. For one reason or another, he just can't seem to fit in with anyone. He already had low expectations when he came over to the US, but he wasn't anywhere close to prepared for how cruel some people were. The things they'd say, the things they would do... With a history of light bullying in his youth, he now has a history of severe bullying, at the hands of one specific group of boys in his adolescence. While no one knows he's gay, one guy really likes picking on him, by insisting he must be- which does nothing for his nerves.

Once he was out of highschool and into college, things quieted down. He now lives a normal, uneventful life living alone with his Grandmother as some kind of social recluse. Even as a child, he would rather spend time reading, watching nature documentaries and playing board games with his family then going and interacting with his peers.

Daiki is a very fun character in terms of his interests, he's pretty well spread. He's got this fixation with animals, bugs and nature in general, and he's got a whole repertoire of nerdy interests. Gaming, comics, computers and tech gadgets, reading all sorts of stuff and classic literature. He's also super into music, specifically, metal. He collects all kind of metal posters and cds to play on repeat. He loves to sing, (more specifically, scream) and specifically takes a liking to karaoke, though he only ever went alone since he has no one to go with. Hes also fairly crafty- always writing something down, journaling, sewing and knitting things alongside his grandmother like an old man, he does all sorts of things! None of which involve going outside or speaking to people ever.

_{Vincenzo Ricci}

Nicknames : Vinny, Vince, Vin
Age : 21
Height : 5'8"
Sex : Male
Pronouns : He / Him
Race / Ethnicity : White Italian American
Spoken Languages : English
Romantic Attraction : Androromantic , Demiromantic(ish)

Vincenzo is a character that has a lot of inner struggle both at home and in his mind. After all, being raised by a domineering, angry, narcissitic father will do that to ya. Outwardly he plays the role of a popular socialite, getting along with girls and guys alike- rarely making enemies. His wit and humor is his crux he uses to bounce from person to person, situation to situation. Though despite him playing all his cards "right" and getting nearly everything he's "supposed" to have.... he isnt satisfied.

He's a fairly well-balanced dude, he has quite the varied amount of interests, though he is pretty much a normie. He's very into sports, is insistent on getting a blue station wagon someday, and is mildly into fashion. Though he hasn't really explored that side of himself much. He plays the occasional video game, but most of his time is spent either working out, or watching shitty reality TV shows. That is- if he isn't trying to find some party or plan for the weekend where he can get out of the house and moving. He used to be kind of edgy when he was younger, but he's since grown out of all that.

His dog Pepper is the only thing keeping him in the house, otherwise, he's so antsy he needs to get out.

_{Sara De Rose}

Nicknames : N/A
Age : 21
Height : 5'2"
Sex : Female
Pronouns : She / Her
Race / Ethnicity : White Italian American
Spoken Languages : English
Romantic Attraction : Alloromantic

Sara is a craftswoman by all definitions. Raised by a family who was just happy to have a kid that was alive and breathing- she got to do it all. Playing catch with dad in the yard while dressed as a princess, sewing and cooking with mom while listening to rock music... Despite her surroundings slowly but surely shoving her in a box, she at the very least, had her family give her some reprieve. And it shows.

Shes quite the creative type, who isnt limited to anything, since she had access to pretty much everything, with no judgement coming from inside the house. From sewing half her own wardrobe, to modifying her own furniture in the yard with her dads power tools on a whim- she's a crafty one. Yet most of her love for the DIY scene in general came from her love of the punk scene.

She may not look it anymore, since shes since gone into "hiding" as a "normal person" to avoid being seen as an easy target for unsavory dudes- but she's steadfast in the punk ideology. Those who first meet her can usually tell shes fairly non judgemental, open-minded, and doesn't want to see anyone in pain. Though... it seems she frequently forgets that she, herself, is included in "anyone," and finds herself going through more pain than she should. Perhaps giving all those second, third, fourth, fifth chances... have something to do with it? Have she learned to say "no" yet?

_{Alexander Harris}

Nicknames : Alex, Lexi, Lex.
Age : 21
Height : 5'9"
Sex : Male
Pronouns : He / Him
Race / Ethnicity : African American
Spoken Languages : English
Romantic Attraction : Alloromantic

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_{Peter McCarthy}

Nicknames : Pete, Petey.
Age : 25
Height : 6"1"
Sex : Male
(Current) Pronouns : He / Him
Race / Ethnicity : White, Irish
Spoken Languages : English
Romantic Attraction : Panromantic

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_{Katie Campbell}

Nicknames : Kate, Kit-Kat
Age : 20
Height : 5'3"
Sex : Female
Pronouns : She / Her
Race / Ethnicity : White American
Spoken Languages : English
Romantic Attraction : Aromantic

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_{Christopher Campbell}

Nicknames : Chris
Age : 20
Height : 5'5"
Sex : Male
Pronouns : He / Him
Race / Ethnicity : White American
Spoken Languages : English
Romantic Attraction : Heteroromantic

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_{Aniyah Brown}

Nicknames : Annie, Ann
Age : 21
Height : 5'5"
Sex : Female
Pronouns : She / Her
Race / Ethnicity : African American
Spoken Languages : English
Romantic Attraction : Alloromantic

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_{Robert Hall}

Nicknames : Robbie, Rob
Age : 20
Height : 5'0"
Sex : Male
Pronouns : He / Him
Race / Ethnicity : White American
Spoken Languages : English
Romantic Attraction : Demiromantic

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_namename

Nicknames : adssadsad
Age : asdda
Height : asdasd
Sex : asdasd
Pronouns : dfsdfsdf
Race / Ethnicity : fdfsdfsd
Spoken Languages : English
Romantic Attraction : erm

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Nicknames : adssadsad
Age : asdda
Height : asdasd
Sex : asdasd
Pronouns : dfsdfsdf
Race / Ethnicity : fdfsdfsd
Spoken Languages : English
Romantic Attraction : erm

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_{Media Log}

As I've stated before, I'm not making just one formatted thing for these guys. So i'll be linking literally everything there is of them here. Comics will be found in their own tab.

_{Sequential Videos . . .

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_{Silly Stuff . . .

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_Extras

What it says on the tin. Random little extra stuff I think is silly or fun that probably isnt entirely irrelevant, but isn't able to be sorted anywhere.

_{Stupid Nonsense... Ft. Daiki}

When I said he was a varied guy, I meant it lol. For as much as stupid little fun facts don't serve much of a purpose for an overarching story, hence 'fun fact'- I think even stupid little info bits about a character (or at least the ones I make) should characterize them more. This stuff isnt just silly for the sake of being silly, but adding to and building up an already existing personality stucture. For as much as they're fairly stereotypical, real people aren't ever that consistent, so that shows here as well.

_{Stupid Nonsense... Ft. Vincenzo}

He's such an odd combination of normie and weirdo its so fun lol. Honestly I can't really imagine he'd be the type staying inside, so it's not like he really fills his home-time with anything other than Tv. Unlike Daiki, who has like a billion things he could and wants to do while at home. This guy's deinfitely out every day plus weekends for as long as possible.

_{Recent Drawing...}

page 1/2 of an Addams family-ified sillything.

_{Commonly Asked Questions...}

Q: Is this a webtoon? Is this on webtoon?

A: Nope! They're just my little guys im making a buncha stuff of. I don't think id ever put this on webtoon or format it like that honestly.

Q: Are you gonna make a comic of them?

A: In theory, yes. I plan on making the sequential videos like i've been doing so far, plus short little comics that when pieced together, tell a greater story. Though im not really formatting this as one big comic or anything. I am workin on stuff though, I promise!

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