June 6th, 2025.

Uoogogh my god- okay so vent time-

I go to wacom to try and get a support agent like 5 times, and theyre like oh have u tried turning down the brightness NO SHIT I HAVE YES I TRIED THAT THERES A DIFFERENT PROBLEM HERE. Like oh my god- look, i get it, customer service workers arent paid to care and they probably deal with insane people all day long but like *fuck* man, can you PLEASE just actually listen to what im describing instead of writing this off as a user error or a non-problem and just linking me wacom articles i already read 500 times- cause this thing *literally* is like a fire hazard within 3 seconds of turning it on, no joke.
so after like 5 times of painstakingly doing that and calling every tech support person known to man i finally get one wacom agent thats actually helpful and shes like oh yeah that doesnt sound right at all and im like YES THATS WHAT IVE BEEN SAYING. and shes like well, if you can sort of replicate it on your old setup but to a much lesser degree, it might be the thermal paste is starting to go and it would need a repair since your new stuff is stronger so its struggling to try and get it cooled down, or theres dust buildup. so im like *okay*, thats an actual answer I didnt consider, alright the thermal paste is potentially going so how do i get this fixed, she explains the whole thing with the repair stuff which is even *more* money so im like auhh shit- okay. And shes liek yea for now just clean it, leave it unplugged, wait for that other cable you have comin in and see if the issue perissts and if so send it for repairs. So now im waiting for a cable.
and im also still running to doctors since i have no idea what caused that sickness thing i had since i had to go the er for the first time cause i really genuinely thought my throat was gonna close up. and then it just.... left??? but now i have gerd. uugrghhh.... stuff is starting to calm down and i feel better but fuck man i feel like i have caught a break since last year. Its just one after another after another problem after problem.

April 17th 2025

Easter was nice, I got to have dinner with my fam, talk to my cousins for a bit and I had a cheesecake that I was fighting for my life trying to eat.... between how full I was and my milk allergy im glad im not doubled over right now lol. worth it 10/10 would eat cheesecake again.

it started off kinda shitty and chaotic though cause my dad dropped a glass cologne bottle onto his foot and cut open his toe right as we were about to leave. so that was certainly something.

April 17th 2025

I sent in my last final assignments... So... I guess that means college is over. Like... forever until/if I need something more than a bachelors or something. I got crazy anxious submitting the final assignment and I sorta calmed down now, but man uh.... not too keen on just, being in "life" right now. It sorta feels like I was trained to swim really well and now im just supposed to climb a mountain forever when its like um.... that isnt what i was trained for- how am I supposed to do this??

that and i guess i just have free time now? like, with nothing really weighing on my head....? ish? Im just glad i have actual stuff to do and goals and freelance jobs im getting, I think that softened the blow a bit. If I didnt id probably really be shitting my pants rn.

In other news- I bought the 1 dollar xbox game pass so i could play minecraft with a friend, and what games do i see other than banjo and kazooie, banjo and tootie, AND costume quest- and apparently theres a second costume quest??? I have to play them all. I replayed the demo games endlessly as a kid on my xbox360. Im still so charmed by banjo and kazooie to this day- though I was kinda shocked to see how they really put an emphasis on fat=bad in terms of comedy. Like to be fair, its a game made in like, 1998, so yknow... Im just surpised I didnt pick up on it as a kid. I just liked the silly cartoon characters and kazooie, who I didnt even realize was apparently a she? I assumed she was a dude as a kid and never paid attention to the dialogue LOL

oh and ive been like insanely addicted to playing minecraft in my forever world i started. something something escapism from stress something something I want to make it my happy place something something I should probably have hobbies instead of working 24/7.

March 12th 2025

uuwehh I gotta get back on track with my work... I ended up getting fixated on this site and i got to much shit to do, plus ive been tired as hell just kinda zombie-walking through the entire day, waking up late as shit...
I dunno, im all outta sorts. I feel like im in a weird limbo for some reason. Plus i messed up my sleep schedule so badly lol

November 10th 2024.

Ive been watching the grumps play danganronpa 3 and its a very different game then the first two. I'm missin nagitos shenanigans but overall I think the cast of the 2nd game is the strongest. the third just feels like meh to me for some reason. That and ive been trying to get out of a little post nov 6th depression, mainly by trying to work on the next oc video project I want to make. I was already kinda losing steam for a while now but I think I may be crashing. I gotta get back into the routine of doing stuff and making things. Once I get started then I tend to keep going.

August 10th, 2023.

A little bit of a late entry, since today is the 10th- but I hadn’t gotten around to making the journal page yet, and I still thought it was funny, even if it’s super annoying and we still didn’t fix it yet. This was on the 1st.

So, as the title of the entry says- me, my mom, and my brother went to see the Barbie movie. I liked it! Not a perfect movie, but it was trying to send something out and it did it. Margot Robbie was pretty much a perfect cast for Barbie. Also, Ryan Gosling killed it as Ken. I had to try not to cry like 7 different times in the theatre LOL. Thankfully I have years of conditioning where I can sort of suck it back in my eyes… to varying degrees of success. The movie hit kind of hard given that I’m not a stereotypically feminine sort of woman, I always sort of leaned towards more boyish interests and mannerisms which I always got slack for. But all that aside, where does the microwave come in?

So, for context, my dad is incompetent. That’s the most I’ll say about him since it’s not positive for pretty much all of it. He's fairly good at messing things up all the time, then acting like all of us are just as accident prone. That if an accident does happen (which according to him, it will.) Then it’ll be by our hands and our stupidity, etc, etc. So, cut to me, my mom, and my brother out to eat after the Barbie movie, and my mom gets a text from my dad which- I shit you not, started with “please don’t be mad, but- “ Like the way a child would approach their mother after they did something wrong… even though he's a grown ass man. He said he tried to put a bag of popcorn in the microwave for 3 minutes, and we assume- like usual, he was too busy on the phone and walked away from the microwave. Which then caught on fire. He apparently snuffed out the flame by keeping the door shut and then dumping the bag in water or something, even though we have a fire extinguisher like… 3 feet from the kitchen? Idk if I’m being honest, it’s impossible to get a straight story out of him, but point is- he sends us pics of the microwave charred black on the inside with a burnt looking popcorn bag shriveled up and charred black in it. And then he shitily washed the inside of the microwave with a chemical that would poison us if we microwaved food in it and ate it. But the microwave was broken, so a day or two after the incident, he took it off the wall and now it’s been sitting on our kitchen table taken apart since he's trying to fix it instead of just getting a new one… Since he doesn’t have the money because he refuses to work. (Refuses. Not tries, and fails to.) So now we’ve been without a microwave for like 2 weeks, and when I tell you I didn’t realize how often we used that microwave until we can’t use it anymore… It took over half an hour to heat up leftovers that would have taken 2 minutes… smh. It was pretty funny just recounting the absurdity of it though. Like we come out of the Barbie movie all happy after having a fun day out, and are immediately hit with the microwave being lit on fire for the measly 3 hours we left him alone.

So there's a little glimpse into my life and the kind of chaos this one guy brings on lolol